Bloody fucked up;

Hi.

It's a wednesday evening. 5.17pm. Not a good day, not a good day at all.

Today school was alright. I heard him call my name today, for the first time. Gawd it was so cuteeee. Haha, and he was smiling with a wideeee smile(: Anyway, nothing else happened in school. Came really early in the morning, arrived at 7am. Waited till 8.15 till school started. Sat at the canteen with marcia & efung & vern wei.

When school started, we had abit of mandarin then went straight for the photo taking session thingy. All up to 2 periods before lunch. It was a complete waste of time, i slept in the hall while waiting for my turn, lol.

Today, someone told me something so bloody fucked up. Seriously, i don't get it why people have to blame ME. Of all people, me? Nb =.=" You don't know how seriously FUCKING PISSED i am. I don't even have the fucking mood to look at your face or even think about anything that is related to you. Please la, i live in the 21st century, i don't go obsessed over someone for a lifetime, idiot.

Yesterday was a pretty fucked up day too. Right after 7pm the luck changes. FCK IT. I got the blame for every single fucking thing. The day i finally told myself that i shouldn't care anymore, this shit happens. & brings me back all the way to having problems, AGAIN. Ever since June, i haven't had a problem-free day. Ever, bloody mother fucking hell, today was SUPPOSED to be the first day i'd get a problem-free day, but NOOO, it was FUCKING ruined. Gah, fuck this.

Look, i don't want to give a FUCKING SHYT no more about this matter. HOPEFULLY, today is the first and last day i'd ever get pissed about this. I deserve to fucking forget all this crap and move on with my idiotic, non-humoured life. Seriously, you want it? You can have it.

So yeah, whatever la. Anything you wanna say or do, just go ahead. It dosen't bother me, it shouldn't. I have my friends to distract me from everything that pulls me down and tears me into pieces. They'd bring me up and put back the pieces slowly & gently even if it takes a lifetime. Friends are all i need right now, so if you're not one, just fucking BACK OFF.

I'm so over it, everything is pointless &, the future is always bright. We can never change the past, but we can make the future a better one. (:

Anyway, my long-awaited london trip is coming soon, i'm not going to let a stupid fucking matter like this get in the way of me enjoying then. It's in 9 days time. Please, let me have a trip that i can have fun and not think about some fucked up things. Don't you people ever let me see ANYTHING that has to do with that matter, i swear i'll tell you off nicely. Don't mess with me when i'm pissed, seriously.

I'm not immature nor am i going to fight back. This is so silly, i don't get the meaning of it. & regardless of what the meaning is, i don't care. I don't want to care anymore. This is just one of those high-school problems everyone faces. As for me, i took it seriously, & now it's time to let go of whatever anger i have inside, let it out & build a better future.

Okay, lets not talk about this no more. No point getting pissed over some fucking immature matters.

Today laughed alot after school, Sonia had put the stick near Atiqah's leg, & then Atiqah THOUGHT it was a cat or something, she went like "AAHHH" or something la, in a super funy way. Then me & sonia started laughing our assess off, our stomachs hurt like hell but it didn't matter, gawd it was so funnehh. Made my day better (:

If i were to go to school & not find nad, heena, atiqah, simmy, or sonia. I guess i'd pretty much be dying right now. Their the only people on this planet i look forward to seeing in school. The people who make me laugh non-stop again and again and again continuously everyday in school. I love you guys lah ! Not forgetting the guys too, khai teq always joking when i'm talking about serious matters, makes me laugh and forget about being pissed. Jet always giving the awesome-est advice but sadly always laughing at my sprained hand :( But it still does make my day better, Ben who is always trying to bully me but fails continuosly, Daryl who keeps on "accidentally" seeping my secrets out, but on accident, but still always there to listen, Ryan, who is always giving me advice, [honest advice] on what i should do & not, sorry if i left out one of your names, but still y'all should know how important y'all mean to me :)

In class nothing much happened, slept thru Science as i couldn't write, Yi Zhe and I kept making fun of the "Maple Prank Call" Haha. Had posted that vid in one of my previous posts, you can go check it out.

Probably going to hang with Li Jin on saturday, if not ima go out. I need a day out, filled with people to freaking cheer me up. I need to get a fucking life, a new one. Leaving the old one behind, as it's filled with all fucked up stuff. Argh.

Starting tomorrow, i'm the new me, same attitude same style. New options and choices in life. Leave the past behind, just let people accuse me ALL THEY FUCKING WANT. :)

Todaaaayy can finally try Gareth's server. After waiting how long my stupid thing can't work. So he put it into a pendrive and passed it to me today, gah finally got something to do online =.=

I'm off, bye FUCKTARDS.

You've fucking crossed the line. Next time, think before you act.