Love?!

Have you ever loved someone so much till their all you ever think about?

She knew this guy for almost a year now and guess what? Their finally together.

He was, an okaayy guy, but in her eyes he sparkled like glitter. In a room full of people he was the only one he saw. (Okay la dramatc sikit, not because he's fat okay! -.-) She never really knew why she had feelings for him tho. But she knew that maybe, just maybe he was right for her? She made her move, she saw no reaction from him so she backed off. She was there for when he needed her, she gave him advice, and cheered him up always, slowly, she started falling for him, falling hard. She tried to get out of it but it was obvious she couldn't. She decided, well why not, he's an okay guy, she'd give it a shot. She stayed put in his spell. Just waiting for something magical to happen. Soon, he fell for her too. She was glad. ( I think ). On the oh-so-wonderful date ; 14th March 2009, they were finally a couple, or at least thats what people could call them? Who knows if she'd ever lose feelings for this guy, or who knows if his feelings for her would ever fade. It's up to God to decide. Lets just hope that God makes a GOOD decision, and not make a foolish one. On her birthday, she only wished for one very amazing thing. It was so always be with him. Will God grant her that wish? Or will He bail on her & make him dissapear. Will her fairytale come to an end? It's 11:11pm on a Sunday night, it was her birthday night, she wished again for him to be forever hers. You know, writing this hurts for her, well somehow it does. But, what are blogs for right? Who else could ever understand her? Him? Yeah, maybe he does, or maybe not. SHe decides to keep it to herself as she worrys more & more everyday about their relationship. In her life she'd never been with someone for as long as a year. Lets just hope their relationship lasts for maybe, ETERNITY? God knows.

I swear i love you Baby(:

i love you(:

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Wondering why i'm filled with smiles? :D




14o3o9 ; i lavv yuu baby(:

Shall this date remain year after year.

14o310
14o311
14o312

& so on :D

I love you Ma Chee How & forever it shall stay!

Home;

halluuuu.

It's 5.14pm, waiting to get out of the house and out of sight from my sister;

Tooday, woke up at about 12.45pm because my sister came and shouted at me, very early in the morning. Just when i woke up, she had to piss me off. Jeez. Anyway then i couldn't b bothered so i fought with her for the computer, and as usual, i won. :) She went to get water so i rushed to the computer. heh. "When an enemie leaves a door open, you must rush in" - Sun Tzu, the art of war. Anywaaayy, moving onn, kept looking for servers till im like sooo darn bored. So i intro DracoStory to Mico so she's playing it nao. LOL, she and my sister happens to get along very well. Glad that's happening, my sister dosen't have to kacau me ald. x_x Hmm, so, i'll be heading to McD with Mico ltr for dinner. (: Glad to be leaving th' house. I hate being so cooped up at home ._. Hmm, as usual i'm alwaaaays missing babyyy. O:

Love's when there's a thousand people and all you can see is Him ;

-I BelieveI'm In Love-

xxoo-;

EDIT*

Just got back from McD with Micoo. Got really pissed at this fking lady & man behind us at the order counter. So it goes like this ..

Theres this couple behind us and that girl was like so fxcking short. She's like so totally fxcked upp man. So yeh i accidentally lifted my leg and hit hers. I turned behind politely and said sorry, she just nodded like the couldn't care less. Then i saw her oh-so-im-trying-to-look-scary boyfriend staring at me with his fking stupid face. Sheesh. Anw, then after a few seconds, that BLARDY FKNG GIRL kicked my leg. I'm like, wtfxck ai tio sibo?! But she's malay so i just stared at her. Jeez, not to offend malays but jeez, why are they so fcking self centered man? Everyone i know agrees to that. Grr. Anyway, not all, "SOME". So as i was saying, she kicked my leg and i just stared at her and she kinda giggled or something and then turned to look at her boyfriend. So yeh, i looked at her fxked up boyfriend and he just stared again. Jeez, fcker. Anyway, when we were leaving, he kept staring at us while we went out. Anw, dude, if you're reading this, you can just FCUK OFF aye? cc'b blardy asshole.

Anyway, im how nao and my maple cant patch lei ! Friggin pissed with itttttt. Roar. Then Mico kept telling my sister like, amanda ah, your jiejie ah, better not let her hug you wor, see if she hug her husband sure very harddd one can die de. Then im like, wtfxck?! LOOOOL ! Aye, it's not true okaaay, i r gentle. hoho. ><

Lay you and me ;

When you're here, i love you.

When you're there, i miss you.

When you're gone, i need you

Pretty bored nao, not to mention friggin fuuulll. Just had ma dinner. Had my favourite nasi leak with that fried chicken thingy. :D Anw, woke up at 12.30 today, nth much to do so i went straight to the computer, [yeah i know, com addict] so yeh, went on msn, everyone was on so went straight to maplee, then saw everyone on. Tho, as usual NO ONE greets me ._. Anyway, then went off cuz it was deadd boring. Then received this sms from this girl named hana. Well she's like, i'm luqman's neighbour. He told me alot about you, and he said you're the hottestgirl etc etc. LOL i was like, uh, o-kaayy? So anw, forget abt that, theenn, i went to look for other servers, jeez, it's boring looking fer servers. Grr. Thinking about giving Ian a call since he's back in KL. Heh. Err, yeaaah, i've nothing much to say ald x_x. I miss my sweeeetheart :\.

Under the tree,

as happy as can be,

lay you and me,

So happily,

while laughing merrily,

you said to me,

that you loved me,

And un-terribly,

you proved that to me,

so cheerfully,

under the tree,

Happy as can be,

lay you and me

Restless ;

I feel restless, w/o you here with me.

Last night stayed up until 3am then went to sleep, was sms-ing baby until he fell asleep. x_x. I too almost fell asleep watching Secret. Not to say it wasn't nice, it was awesome, just that i was like sooooo sleeeeeppyy. Anyway, after babyy slept, i slept too. Then i woke up at 4, couldn't sleep well, i went down and watched tv. Nothing nice on, so i took pictures. x_x. Then started watching Grey's Anatomy, followed by Desprate Housewives, then the jonas brother's concert in new york. It was already about 6.30am so i went up to sleep, my room was freezing like fk. I pulled over two blankets + wearing my hoodie and i was still sooo coldd. Probably because of my fever. x_x. So, i didn't really bother, continued sleeping while hugging pillows and bolster. Ahh, i wish he could've been right besideee me. Later, i wke up at about 12.30pm and straight went to bath and stuff, then went out for lunch at 1.20pm. We went to delifrance and on the way I met Amanda, her mum and grandpa eating somewhere nearby. I just said hi then left, she could've came to my house to, she had tuition. o_o. Hmm, then, had my favourite lasagna as usual and a coke. Then bought some of their awesome pastries home. Just got out of maple because it's fk boring in there. No one greeted me when i logged in ._.'' I guess p.server people are waaayy friendlier. I can say that azns really don't have manners like the caucasians do. x_x Ah, nothing much to write ald. So, much loves ! xxxx

xxoo-;

E.C.

I am crazy, over this baby. SEXY, No? Go fuck yourself 56253849 times.

Now for reality . Yesterday night was a good night, though i moaned alot earlier in the night, but towards the end, i was really proud of myself, i made the courage to text him, i texted him a 10 message long text together with a picture. I was happy with his reply, i wouldn't read out what i sent or replied, but yeah. I'm pretty happy now, at least not as moody a before. Anyway, in the morning, i woke up at about 10.45 because the stupid ALCANTRA LEICESTER SHAWN (vincent) called me so early ._. Just to talk about me giving Bella his number. -.- Sheez, then i couldn't sleep after that. Jeepers. So, nothing much happened today, i'll just continue loving Robert as how i do nowwww :D loves !.

xxoo-;

I love you, Boy.

Boy,

I miss your Smile,

I miss your Laughter,

I miss your Goodnight Text messages,

I miss your Voice,

I miss the way you sat next to me,

I miss your Tricks,

I miss your Jokes,

I miss your Sense of humour,

I miss your Scent,

I miss your Posture,

But most of all , I Miss You.

I've never given much thought to how i would love you, how tender and comforting your love might be, i've felt it, and let it go, i've lost it and wanting it back. It was such a short while, so short that we never really had time for anything, everything happened so fast, i couldn't keep track of the surroundings. Thus, you were gone when i finally could stand still, and make decisions which were proper. I'm so sorry for your hurt and misery inside, I'm so sorry you had to tell me you loved me on the day I hurt you the most, I'm so sorry you had to cry all night only because of me, I'm so sorry you had to force yourself into forgetting about me only because I told you to, I'm so sorry you had to love me in the first place, because boy, forgetting about me was the best decision you ever made, loving me was nothing but stupid of you, because of that, i'm no longer wear the smile that you loved so much. I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm so so sorry. I can't help it, but I know, I love you so much and yet I don't wanna do anything about it, Boy, I promise, i'd not hurt you once more like i did before.

Twilight Struck ;

Today was almost perfect.

Went to piramid with syaz, nad and another nad. We watched TWILIGHT. It was the highlight of my YEAR ! Twilight was waaayyy better on the big screen than in the book. I did cry at the end, but still, we laughed at the start. When they first showed Edward Cullen, the whole crowd in the cinema was like "WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO" Geez, Twilight was awesome, and now, i'm freakishly in LOVE, with Robert Pattinson who played Edward Cullen in Twilight. Robert Pattinson is lovedlovedloveddd ! Twilight was WAAAAY beyond what i expected ; it was amazing. Then, we just walked around and did stuffs, nadiah had to go so me, syaz and the other nadiah went to this err, arabian or turkish place, and syaz and nadiah smoked this err, sheesha or what th' fxck it's called thing, jeeeez, freaked me out. LOL. Anyway, then syaz left us and i wet off fo more shopping, bought loads of nail polish, oh and i bought NEED FOR SPEED : UNDERCOVER ! Woohoo, i remember when i first fell in love with this game, i was playing it on Kuang Jin's PSP. Heheehee. Anyway, didn't take any pictures today, was too carried away thinking about EDWARD CULLEN the whole time. Hehe. Alright then i guess that's about it. Loves ;)


To Be Unconditionally and Irrevocably In Love With Edward Cullen

xxoo-;

ohkaaay well,
yesterday he texted me, at night though. It was about 11.45pm. I was online, chatting withh daniel, syaz, kamun, nisha and i think thats all i remembered. So yeaaah we were having loads of fun. Hmm, then all of a sudden i got a text from, let's call him Mr.M, so yeah i got a text from him as usual, he talked as if, im the only one? Well as i was saying, there was a message where he wrote "Please tell me when you're ready for a real relationship". Err, excuse me? But, are you really going to be waiting for me? Will he? Will he WAIT? That's the million dollar question guys, Will He WAIT? Is he willing to WAIT? So i told him, he dosen't have to wait for me, he could always move on to other girls, if, im taking too long. Which i sorta think i am, but if he's faithful and sinciere, he'd probably stick to me. (:
That's all for now, below is a screenshot of yesterday's crazy coversation. HOHO.





See What Daniel said, LOL. Oh yes, i know, my english is very good ain't it? HOHO. Nah, jokes. :D

jeez.

he likes me, he likes me not.
he likes me, he likes me not.
he likes me, he likes me not.

does he likeee me?!

Yes, maybe, he does, he told me, why would he lie about it?
He asked me to be his, TWICE, i rejected, he told me i could take my time on things, and just tell him when im ready. Why would he lie about all this? I hope not. How many people does he WANT to like? JEEPERS.

sometimes ;

HOHO.
Today was, well great. Hee.
Woke up in the morning and checked my phone for the time, gawd it was only 7am. There was one message and two misscalls. The misscalls were from unknown numbers, so i couldn't care less but to delete them off. Then, there was a message from an unknown number, so decided to open it with curiosity. In the message, it wrote. "Hey, is this Andrea?". Okay, that's so random, i guess most people would say that after their first time getting my number. Hee. Okay so i replied, "Yeah, it's andrea, Whose this? Sorry to wake you since it's so early". So about, 3 minutes later, i received a reply, it said " Oh hey, do you know me? " Then of course, i replied " No, i dont think so ". So he replied.. gah nvm. so we kept sms-ing and then it was Muhaimin. HOHO. He got my number from sonia which got it from nadiah. okaaaay so we were talking and talking then i asked, "why the sudden urge to sms me?" he replied "oh nothing, just wanna be friends" Then i'm like "oh okaay". So yeah, we talked and talked. Then he asked "hey, i heard from "people" that you like me, is that true?" so im likeee, "oh yeah, i only told ryan though but i guess secrets out". He was okay with it so yeh, we talked then i remembered that i was "supposed" to tell him about amanda-liking-him, so i said "hey, do you know, my friend amanda, really likes you" then he said "omg, but i kinda like someone else" sooo, i asked, "mind if i ask, whose that 'someone else' "? So he replied " i kinda like you ". I was, um, shocked? Oh okay wait, truthfully i wasnt THAT shocked ._. but anyway, i never thought he liked me LOL. So yeah the day went on, then he had football in school so he went, then about 12+pm, he texted meeee. So we talked till about 5.30pm, then he had to go. So anyway, amanda seems, pissed? LOL. okay so at night, i webcamed with chee how. HEHE, took some photos, here they aree. I didn't turn on my webcam cuz it's like, wierd, so yeh.

He was "trying" to entertain me ._.''



He, sms-ing his laopo (natalieee) :D




He was quite like emo against me at first, something about me liking _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _. Idk he said he has some "bad feelings" about this guy. Anyway, i just listened to him. Maybe he's right, maybe not. IDDDKKK. x_x

Anyway guys, later on at night, sundeep sms-ed me, asking me "hey, omg you like muhaimin?" im like, wtf, how come everyone knows like so sudden? ._. Then he's like "fyi, he likes you, he told me" Im like LOL. yeh , tell me something i dont know. =/





Sometimes, it's worth waiting for

it's life.

hmm well
last night was terrible,
it was the first time i ever got so hurt
)': i mean, how?
well its because of love
when you give in to love, this is what happens
i dont mind it as long as i have daniel by my side.
but one thing i'd never want is to see
him cry, i never meant to hurt u darls
i never meant to make u cry.
all i ever wanted is for you to be happy
even if you're not with me or anything,
then if you're happy, im glad.
this is what love made me,
darls, i've learnt alot from you, you have taught me so many things
its almost uncountable
You always made sure that i studied, and did all those school work,
you made sure i had perfect health, that made me take care of myself,
u made sure i was always happy, and that made me smile all the time
you thought me much more than this, but words cant explain it
theres so many things i want to tell you,
so many things i want to express and to let everything out,
i want you to know that
i love you,
these three words are not easy to say
but i mean it, i love you and thats true.
im not good, at choosing the right words to say to you
or anything, but what i can never exactly show you is that
i love you.