E.C.

I am crazy, over this baby. SEXY, No? Go fuck yourself 56253849 times.

Now for reality . Yesterday night was a good night, though i moaned alot earlier in the night, but towards the end, i was really proud of myself, i made the courage to text him, i texted him a 10 message long text together with a picture. I was happy with his reply, i wouldn't read out what i sent or replied, but yeah. I'm pretty happy now, at least not as moody a before. Anyway, in the morning, i woke up at about 10.45 because the stupid ALCANTRA LEICESTER SHAWN (vincent) called me so early ._. Just to talk about me giving Bella his number. -.- Sheez, then i couldn't sleep after that. Jeepers. So, nothing much happened today, i'll just continue loving Robert as how i do nowwww :D loves !.

xxoo-;

I love you, Boy.

Boy,

I miss your Smile,

I miss your Laughter,

I miss your Goodnight Text messages,

I miss your Voice,

I miss the way you sat next to me,

I miss your Tricks,

I miss your Jokes,

I miss your Sense of humour,

I miss your Scent,

I miss your Posture,

But most of all , I Miss You.

I've never given much thought to how i would love you, how tender and comforting your love might be, i've felt it, and let it go, i've lost it and wanting it back. It was such a short while, so short that we never really had time for anything, everything happened so fast, i couldn't keep track of the surroundings. Thus, you were gone when i finally could stand still, and make decisions which were proper. I'm so sorry for your hurt and misery inside, I'm so sorry you had to tell me you loved me on the day I hurt you the most, I'm so sorry you had to cry all night only because of me, I'm so sorry you had to force yourself into forgetting about me only because I told you to, I'm so sorry you had to love me in the first place, because boy, forgetting about me was the best decision you ever made, loving me was nothing but stupid of you, because of that, i'm no longer wear the smile that you loved so much. I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm so so sorry. I can't help it, but I know, I love you so much and yet I don't wanna do anything about it, Boy, I promise, i'd not hurt you once more like i did before.

Twilight Struck ;

Today was almost perfect.

Went to piramid with syaz, nad and another nad. We watched TWILIGHT. It was the highlight of my YEAR ! Twilight was waaayyy better on the big screen than in the book. I did cry at the end, but still, we laughed at the start. When they first showed Edward Cullen, the whole crowd in the cinema was like "WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO" Geez, Twilight was awesome, and now, i'm freakishly in LOVE, with Robert Pattinson who played Edward Cullen in Twilight. Robert Pattinson is lovedlovedloveddd ! Twilight was WAAAAY beyond what i expected ; it was amazing. Then, we just walked around and did stuffs, nadiah had to go so me, syaz and the other nadiah went to this err, arabian or turkish place, and syaz and nadiah smoked this err, sheesha or what th' fxck it's called thing, jeeeez, freaked me out. LOL. Anyway, then syaz left us and i wet off fo more shopping, bought loads of nail polish, oh and i bought NEED FOR SPEED : UNDERCOVER ! Woohoo, i remember when i first fell in love with this game, i was playing it on Kuang Jin's PSP. Heheehee. Anyway, didn't take any pictures today, was too carried away thinking about EDWARD CULLEN the whole time. Hehe. Alright then i guess that's about it. Loves ;)


To Be Unconditionally and Irrevocably In Love With Edward Cullen

xxoo-;

Penpal ;

lulz.

Just got done with "balloon's" blog ; okaaay seriously, i have NOTHING against her, nothing, but just reading her blog makes me pissed, not pissed at her, but pissed at the stuff she wrote. Jeez man, you're not a kid anymore, could you grow up and write something better? You said Jia Qi and Tze Ching took ur ex? Lawl, because you and your ex is over, so why talk about it again? unless somehow you're JEALOUS of them ? Everyone moves on la, so what man. Not that i'm mad at you or anything, but the things you write are just so stupid. ._. Anyway moving on ; I received a letter today, from this guy called Jann from the Phillipines. It's pretty kewl receiving a letter ; never really had a penpal. Thus, this would be my first ;). Hmm, in the morning like before, Dern//Sean comes and disturbs me with his stupid statements. It's weird but anw nvm. Twilight will be out tomorrow, but Syaz, Nad and Me are going to watch it on Friday then after that Nad would be over-nighting my place :D. Guess that's all for today's post, jeez, i'm sooo sleepy, till th' next post :) Byeeeeeeeee.

xxoo-;

The Not ;

Today was nothing, stayed home facing the computer as usual ; watching taiwanese dramas all day long, HAHA. Okay well today sms-ed Syazneil and Nadiaaah confirming our Thursday plans to catch Twilight ! Heh, can't wait fer that, though I've not asked my parents ._. Anyway, i'm not sure whose going either, so yeeh. I'm having a fked up dentist appointment tmrw morning -__-. I'm not sure why though, it's practically my first this year so yeh err nothing much to write about today, oh and i found ANOTHER POSER. :) I guess it's pretty COMMON nowadays ; pfft, posers are only people with totally NO LIFE to live and are just NOT PROUD of their identity. Oh well, we can't do anything about those peoplee. Moving on, school's only open in about 40 days tops. Jeez, it's so boring at home. I'm not too sure if im going anywhere for the holidays or something but i don't even wanna leave the country anyways. Alright i guess that's about it for today's post. Toodles ;)

xxoo-;

Madagascar 2 ;

We went to piramid todaayy, ting, nicholas, me and this guy called issac from nicholas's tuition. Hmm anyway, we got there and straight went for a movie with Pauline and Yi Xian. Watched Madagascar 2. It was nice i guess thugh i never really liked animation movies. Heheh. Funny shyt, HOHO. Then after the movie me, ting, issac and nicholas went to dreamworld though we ever took any pictures, HAHA and yeh we walked around and lost Issac ._.'' Then finally we found him haa, then we went to Ichiban Ramen for lunch, me and Ting had the cawanmushi thingy, don't know how to spell it ._. Hmm, then Ting and Issac went for archery while me and nichols went to that Anime Tech thingy to look at stuff then we came back to watch them do those archery thingy. Uh, after that we went to Starbucks, i belanja-ed them all drinks! It was like 59.90 so yeh nvm, it's not everyday i see Yi Ting <3 Hmm so then at 5 Ting's parents took me to the Petronas nearby to wait fer my mum there, their really nice people like how i remembered them HAHA. So yeaaaah then my mum came and got me so yeh here I am posting this O_o. Alrighttt, byeee ! ;D

Birthday Post ;

27th November

Happy 18th Birthday To Ian Craig. Hah, Have a great birthday ;D

Now for my usual post ; I'm simply feakishly ADDICTED, to techno. Heee, there's like a kezillion tecno songs in my comuter and not even one i haven't heard. :P Nex topic, HEH, no actually, i don't have time to write so i'd make it simple, tomorrow ; going out with nad, nicholas, yi ting and others, it's gonna be awesome, i haven't seen Ting since February ! Gawd i miss her like fcuk :) Anyway i'll get to see her tmrw then. Till th' next post, signing off ~.

I thought you guys would fade ; I was wrong, we're together again

xxoo-;

Can I Ever Let Go ?

It's been awhile since we've talked, is this temporary or is it for real ? Let's be like what we used to, we sms-ed everyday, talked in school and you, caring for me every second and making sure i was okay. I'm so sorry but i know we both have moved on. If i have moved on, why am i still moaning over the past? Why didn't i see this coming when i let you go? Look, truly am sorry, that I hurt you, but knowing you, i guess you heal fast. Anyway, i don't plan on actually being with you in the near future, but who knows what god has up his sleeves aye? Okay, enough talk about love, it's time for reality. Twilight will be out in 6 days ! That brings us to next thursday, i guess nadiah, me, another nadiah and a few other people might hang at piramid or something. Sighs, my smile nowadays, looks faker and faker by the day ; because you're not here, but it's okay, it's for the better, please don't look back at out memories. Okay wait, i went back to the first topic. Jeez, do i have A.D.D. ? ._.'' Friggin always getting off topic. Gah nevermind, till next time.

I never thought letting go was this hard

xxoo-;

I love you too ;

All I have to say to that is,

I let him go, no, i didn't let him go, something made me let go the love he provided. You asked if i loved you, i said no, then you told me that you made the decision that you actually loved me, and then, i broke your heart by saying that you're not the one for me ; you lied. I then said sorry, and the reply you gave me was ; Sorry for what? For not believing in me? & yes, i'm sorry for not believing in you, and sorry for hurting you, of all things you've done for me, i'm really guilty, and sorry, for all i've caused. I know you've moved on, so have I, but you will always remain in me, and your love shall not fade. My mind, it's bugging me, telling me not to be with you, but my heart can't let go of you. Although, we never ended up together, though you asked me two times, I still think, everything you've done for me i never appreciated, when i saw that MMS you sent me the night we all got back from Pangkor, tears came out but i never mentioned, you were so sweet and gentle towards me, and stuff you did to me, i never did to you, you showed me love and care, but i gave you hurt and misery. Truly, i'm sorry and i owe you more than the world. You told me you loved me, i never said it back ;

I love you too.

xxoo-;

Ordinary.

Shaloom. o_o

Well, it's been a big blur these few days. Things happened in such a rush. Big news, but yeah i'm not going to be mentioning all those stuffs here, now. Anywaaaay, according to nadiah, we'd be having a sleepover once Twilight's out O_O. Can't wait for THAT. School's starting in about 40+ days, gee can't wait for THAT, err, i guess i'd be wearing Baju Kurung to school next year. HEHE. Not everyday though, certain days i guess o_o. It looked kinda nice on Simone, so i thought i'd give it a try, but it's so like "copy-ing" ye knowww? :/ Nothing much to be doing noow, on MSN, talking to peopleee, Maple is down, yeh it's BORING anyway, lazy to post up ss-es, i'd do it in another post aye. Currently just sms-ing peopleeeee. Gah, life's boring when you have nothing to do, especially staying home all day long! Err, yeaah might be going out to DYE my hair today, i want pink+purple+blonde. HAHA i know, it's not a very good match but yeh, anyway i guess i'm going to do BLONDE. Think it's going to take big bucks to do those sycadalic colours like pink and purple HEE. Just finished watching Thir13en Ghosts. Heh, it's not that scary after watching for more than 5 times already. Just realised, that show is SUPER old ._. I mean, look at the quality of it HAHA, it's so retarded. HOHO. Okay i'm going out of topic ald. I guess that's it for today, bye loves.

xxoo-;

I laughed while watching THAT.
serious shyt, it's stupid but funny. HAHA

8 hours shoppanghzx ;)

todaytodaytoday.
morning was fine, average like all others, woke up at 9.30. took my bath etc, and left home at 11 for shoppanghzx ! we went to the curveeee and hopped till like 7.30pm ._. bought like a kezillion stuffs, had a bunch of fun. HEE. problem is, my sister had to follow meee ._. She had NOBODY to company her at home so yeh anyway here is i think only ONE picture i took, which HAD to me with my sister cuz im not sure where everyone else ran to ._.''


younger sisters can be a total PESS

new :)

I have changed my link and template. A whole new "fresh" look eh. I was thinking, having a customized blogskin ain't that nice. I preferred the old classic themes. They were awesome. I switchd back to "minima" . And added TVXQ's Mirotic album cover to my header. HAHA. But still, i have no idea how to add a tagboard into his "old template" . Okay, i admit, i don't know much about blogs, and i dont know a thing about reverting back to the old template. I'm so used to the ones i got from blogskins and now i'm all blurred out. -.-

Anyway, i simply love my new template, it's like vintage. Simple, classical, original theme. hoho. I'd post later, still abit busy with these "template" stuffs. :)

twilight ;

HAHA. Gee, i'm excited, guess what? After visiting over a kezillion pages through google, i found out that TWILIGHT would be screening in Malaysia after all. :) The release date is 27th November o8' . I found this from a reliable source; http://www.cinemaonline.com.my/ . HAHA. Robert Pattinson, here i comeeee! ;) Pictures of the much waited and anticipated movie below.

xxoo-;

last day.

Hello.

I'm feeling a little bit emo today probably because it's the last day of school. Never thought school could be such a big influence on me. I'm glad it is anyway. I'm like sooo sleepy. I didn't get enough sleep the past few days. More on the pangkor trip which i never really talked about much yesterday, well we left school on tuesday, i sat in the bus with amanda right infront of ka mun and sher ryn. We had two stops on the way, it was o-kaayy i guess, ate baskin robbins but didnt finish it so khai teq took my share. No actually, khai teq and benjamin took my share. HAHA. So anyway, then on the way in the bus we did nothing much, i slept for abit then we woke up and another stop at err, some place near the jetty, we had kfc for lunch and thn on to the ferry. Hmm, once we reached there we got on a van to take us to the hotel and so yeah when we got there we unpacked and then got into the room. We went "island hopping". We stopped at the Sate Factory then khai teq was like "Andrea, you my best friend right? Belanja me la" . HAHA. but i didn't anyway. LOL. Anyway then the next day we went to the beach at first then we lepak-ed at our roomthe whole afternoon. Khai Teq, Jet, Kuang Jin, etc etc came too and we played cards. Yeh kinda boring though. Then khai helped me with my problems with min at night he told me to just ignore him and dont give in, i took his advice and it kinda worked actually HAHA. The last day, khai teq sorta proposed to me, well it was truth or dare tho hehee and i had to pinch his cheeks, man their so soft HAHA. So then in the end i hugged kuang jin cuz it was his dare and stuff yeah we arrived back in school at about 6.15pm. Okay i think thats all, nothing much to saaay. Byeee :)

Jeepers.

jeepers.

i'm on to another guy.


Here's the story,
I found out stuff about min that i didn't wanna know, stuff that wasn't necesarry at all. My feelings for him faded. And there it went, gone. I'm falling for someone else. Someone i had fallen for a very long time ago, and now, i've fallen for him even deeper, because he actually NOTICED me. He's only the cutest, and funniest. Twice, he came so close to me, gazing into my eyes and me staring into his hazel brown eyes, and i fell in love. His eyes were positively hazel brown, i stared at it everytime he came close to my face. Twice, he came so close that i could actually kiss him. He treats me pretty much like his girlfriend, he's outgoing, and supeeeeer hot i guess. I fell for him, on this trip, this awesome school trip that was organised by fate for me to finally realise that he's the one i've been looking for. Or was he?

I've got a picture of him. It's him wearing Kuang Jin's glasses. HOHO. :) . People told me that they think he likes me, but does he now? :/ I'm kinda LAZY, to tell you the whole story of him so if theres anything you might wanna ask, feel free to ask me aiteeeeee ;) As i was saying, so on the way back from pangkor, we played Truth Or Dare in the bus. Oh no wait, it's practically only Dare. LOL. So yeah, there were two dares that i had to do. The first one was playing with Khai Teq's face and the other one is i had to SMELL Khai Teq's hair. HAHA. And Kuang Jin had the dare of either :-

1) Hugging me.
2) Slapping me.
3) Sniffing my hair.

He chose to hug me, so yeah, i hugged Kuang Jin ! okayokay, no big deal actually ._. So yeah, i guess thats all, below are pctures. ;)




The mess the guys made in OUR room !


Khai Teq ! With Kuang Jin's Glasses. HOHO. cramped face. LOL

ME. LOL

Amanda. Me. Kuang Jin. Tu Fong. Jet. Khai Teq.

Pangkor walk of fame ! ;)