Trying my best to forget you;

Heyho! :D

The jacket still smells like you. Haih.

i love you, forever & always.

Taken : 27th June.

Nothing to do now, so yeh, ima blog. & crap, alot alot alot :D

Yesterday was so bored so chatted with a number of people. LOL. Below are some ss-es i took cos i was bored. Do click on them to enlarge. Some are funny, (i think) -.-

WTFF, Perasan shyttt i din even touch his hand, LOL.

Yer, i sooo did not type that o-kayy -.-

Me & cp was so blur man wtf they talking. LOL

Ryan : Hii I'm fuckai! =D LOLOL

Hmm, nothing muchh to say here tho, feeling so bored. Chyeahh, single sucks. Wanting to start on my projects. Everyday, for me it's like "I'll do my projects today!" & when the time comes, i'm like "Hmm, maybe tmrw :)". You see! That's why i've not even started on a single shit! Damn.


Ryan just called, asked me to go curve tmrw. Aik, dunno if i can. Mummy has pretty much banned me from shopping ever since the 'going-out-everyday' incident. Sighhh. Anyway, afk in maple now. Leeching from Gary. So lazy to look at the maple screen -.- Making me sleepy. Want to play mo siang but then i'm so lazy to even click on the icon. LOL. I want to sleep, cos i'm like so sleepy. But mummy will be home soon & were all going over to cousin's tonight. Haishh. I've got nothing to do tmrw if i don't go out with Ryannn. Grr.


Ehsan told me something very stupid & funny yesterday. But i made a promise so i'm not going to say it out. But seriously, LOL LAH. I can't believe it, nor am i ever going to question it -.-. Anyway, my sister is seriously addicted to The Sims 3 man. Like, omgosh lar she keeps playing it non-stop. Sometimes i watch her play, and i'm like.... What the hell so fun?! lulz.


Soo, last few days my mum hasn't been getting enough sleep. So like everytime around 2am or so she'd wake up and use the computer. To do you know what? Book train tickets -.-'' She can't sleep cos the tickets can't be booked! LOL. It's like this, my dad left all the work & planning to my mum. So yeah, she's like booking the train tickets from London to Paris & guess what? THE TRAIN COMPANY DUN RECOGNISE OUR COUNTRY. Wtfuxxxx?!?!! They have Singapore on their list but not Malaysia -.- I'm like .... Hell No! Can't be Malaysia THAT suckish right! Omg lahh. So yeah I'm not going anytime soon, i'l be going in 2 & a half months. If i go now, it'd be like sure no mood to go -.- Considering the break-up issue, I can't keep my mind off him. Grrr. That's why i need school & friends to get my friggin mind off that guy ! :(


Been really bored lately. Cos it's like no boyfriend to sms :( How sad, so lately i've been fan-ing everyone. LOL. Making them soooo annoyed by me. I really have nothing to do -.- Like, seriously! I keep thinking about him, cos yeah i still have feelings for him but i'm trying to forget. ARGHHHHHHHHH. WHY I CANNOT FORGET?!?!?!?!?!??!?!! -.-''


I wanna go out & check out the contact lens at the store nearby. I hope it isn't too expensive tho. I wanna buy a new pair cos mine's gonna be one month alreadyy. 2 more weeks :| . I hope 14 July 2009 dosen't come. I don't want it to come! Haih. I'm sure going to cry AGAIN on 14th July -.- BooHoo.


Okie, feeling sad now -.-" Andrea! Don't think about him! You can do it, you can do it! Yeees, i can do it T.T I think, Haishh.


Really, alot of couples break in this two months -.- I think starting next month, new couples will form. Haih i wish I find someone by then! At least someone to flirt with larh to take my mind off him! HHHHHAAAAAAAAAAAIIIIIIIIIIIIIIHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

Not meant to be ;

Heyy(:


Feeling down, as usual. You know, sometimes i wonder.... How did you get over me so fast? I'm trying to. Hey, don't go accusing me of shit. Because i didn't do anything wrong. You're the one who said that we should be friends. I'm like... Uhm, okay. So yeah, were friends now. & when i try to forget you, your reaction wasn't what i thought i would get. Argh, then you made me can't forget you, again. But anyway, i have loads of support around me. Everyone I can see will cheer me up. Even parents. Despite dad being a little ... He still gives advice. & Mum, she at least understands the way i feel. But knowingly she will mention the famous phrase ' never forget ur studies '. Heh. A big thankyou to Ryan, Syaz, Simmren, Fong Yu, Amanda, Ehsan, Li Jin, Gary, Nicholas, Heena, Nadiah, Jian Wai, Daryl, Sin Wah, think that's all. Hmm, you guys have been there to cheer me up since day one of break up until today. You guys are so awesome, dealing with me when i have to nag again and again about him. Talking to me everyday to make sure i'm alright & just listening to me cry, or what so ever. I know it's boring to hear, but you guys were there for me! Awwww T.T *hugs*



Today onwards, i'm ready to find another guy to be with. Hey, but single is good too.


Chee How,

I missed those times we were together, yeah of course i do. I miss every single time we kissed or hugged & every time you made a lame joke or just told me you missed or loved me. Seeing you in school was like the only reason why i had a smile on my face 24/7. Despite all the fights we were still really cute together, i know that! The long talks on the phone & those cute messages you sent to me. & the way you are so sensitive. It's cute, but annoying sometimes. Haha. But hey, it dosen't mean that since were friends we can't have those moments anymore. Sure, were not a couple anymore but i'm still keeping my promise. I'll still be there when you need me, but as a friend. You're the one who said that we should be friends when i asked you. So yeah, you got your wish. Don't get me wrong, i'm happy for you, for where you stand today. But just go easy on the girls please, LOL. I will miss you, but someday we both can understand why this is the best for us. :D Goodbye boyfriend. Hello friend :)




Anyway, yesterday night sneaked and used the computer at midnight. LOL, played mo siang. Hmm, it's quite okayy la. Fong yu showed me around the game bla bla. It's quite intresting. Haha, i'll get used to it. Took 2 screenshots as below :-






Hmm, I really am not too sure about what i'm playing or doing. Haha but hey! Don't get me wrong, it's quite fun actually. Hahah, but then I also started maple today. Gary finally gave me the ID & pass. FINALLY! -_-". Thenn playing in Bootes. I'm only level 8 now T.T Soooo lazy to train. Gahh. & now is 2x. Till 10pm. Lol, but veh lazy to play maple. Just feel like sleeping now. I think i'm going to fall sick, omgzxzxzx.


Okiee, i have nothing else to blog about already. F>Boyfriend. Pm me. LOL JOKING -.-

Byeee!

I miss those hugs;

Hey.


I didn't go to school today, well cos i didn't want to. So lazeeeh lar. Some more it's like dam boring can, everyone's so, ish. & yesterday i got really pissed at a certain someone, i dnt knw whose that actually but i think 'she' might be faking. -.-


Anyway forget about that. I'm feeling kinda moody this morning. Hmm, at 7am woke up & sms chee how. Aik, then when he reply that time i sleep back liao -.- I think i'm going to spam msg. LOL. Hmm, now just chatting & patching maple. Gary still haven't gimme id & pass so i can't even play -.-" .


The construction worker all at my house doing some shit thingy at the side, argh so noisy it woke me up -.- And this morning someone didn't tell the van i'm nt going to school. I sms-ed her, i did. I think she purposely din tell de. ZZZ. I'm pissed, and she also spread some stupid rumour to another girl, like what the fuck lar dun talk crap can? -.-


Haishh, seriously no mood now. Everyday after school feels damn lonely kay -.- But i knw i can do this! & i'm not doing it alone, i know at least theres someone who's with me! Li Jin! We'll get through together! right, right?! :D


Last week, i forgot which day tho, i think it was saturday night. Like, 2am in the morning? Webcam-ed with Ehsan! Haha. Here's pictures :D











Hmm, yeah, thats about it. LOL.

Taa.



EDIT*

Was talking to kah sin just now, cos i was like, freaking bored. He love to bully ppl one hor -.-

Sigh.

Heyy(;


In school now, feeling FUCKING moody like hell. Argh


Just now after break everyone went ot the hall of character for some kinda assembly thingy. So yeah i sat with choe hoong, daryl, kim meng, yi zhe & kian wai larh. Soo they started making fun of maple. LOL. Then we talk talk talk. It was fucking funny can. Then suddenly the topic came to indians. LOL Ever more funny lah. We make fun of the way they talk and shake their heads LOL Dam epic :P



In the computer room nao & everyone's playing maple. Roar. I wanna playy, but no pendrive -.- Aik, going to start maple again this weekend. Gary training fer me. Woo. Hmm, other than that i've been quite moody lately. Don't think i'll be in school tmrw. Too lazy, rawr. & school is so damn fucking sien larh. Haih. Somore some people dam 'sombong' one. ish.

Sometimes i wish i could just hug him from behind & tell him how much i still love him, haih.

EDIT*



Back from school, sneaking myself & using the computer. Probably going to ponteng tmrw to lepak with some friends :D Then going to the basketball nearby my house see lengzai with shirt off. Wahaha! Joking -.- Just see them play ball ;D Some stupid rumours in school about Anis & the H1N1 shit. Aik, so fake larh if got also school close liao mah -.-


Trying to patch my maple, i wanna play! But Gary haven't gimme my ID & pass! -.-". So i go try the new game first. Hee, but taking long to load. O_O" Maple new job sounds nice. Everyone was playing in the computer lab just now. Hmm lemme recall what happened in the past two days.



Monday,

Monday we celebrated the english week thingy right after assembly up to lunch time. Soo, we were watching movie and listening to shit stuff & plays. Boring larh, i wanted to ponteng but didnt T.T Soo yeahh just sat there wif everyone blah. Then came home & sms like, dam many people. Sms till hand pain arh! Sms from after school till like, what, 12 or 1am? LOL.


Tuesday,

Tuesday also sien loh. Someone din go school wor (?). Hmm, anyway during the english week thing I was sitting with Nicholas, amanda & daryl. Then watched the debate when Choe Hoong started to talk the whole form 2 stand up & cheer. Hahah, actually not whole form 2, just those close to him :D Soo then after his turn the rest of the debate was like dam sien, so me & daryl ponteng. We went through the backstage sneak out and went to the canteen. Then we both walking at the basketball court there saw Ms. Woo. Then she was like,


Ms Woo : Waa andrea last time ma chee how now daryl?
Andrea : Zz, teacher friend only lar -.-
Ms Woo : Ya Ya
Andrea : Zzz friend only lah -.-
Ms Woo : okay okay.


I'm like, zzz lah. She's also one of the reasons for the break up kay. She influenced me keep asking me to break wif him. Zz Anyway dun talk about that. Soo we were at the canteen awhile then Daryl wanted to eat so i go sit down pei him lo but then Pn. Haria was there so he din eat, then we walk back to the hall, but slowly cos it's like dam sien in there -.- Soo yeah, walk walk then reach hall liao we go in by back door again then lepak at the back stage awhile, talk to the people there then i go back sit cos Ziany pulled me away. LOL. Hmm then watched the play, it was so funny. LOL. Then Simmy asked me to sit behind with the rest so i'm like okayy then Amanda went to sit with Ehsan. Aww they looked so cute together lah :D Hmm then I almost slept off. Simmy borrowed my jacket cos i didn't feel cold. Surprisingly. HAHA. Overall Tuesday was okayy lah.


Today,

Today is like, okayy also quite fun cos choe hoong, daryl & kim meng were like EFFING FUNNY LIKE SHIT LAAAA. It's like they made me laugh like hell cos of the indian thingy. Omg it's dam funny can. Like seriously, HAHA. Anyway, then today talked to li jin alot. During BM time teacher din come in so me & li jin kept walking here & there. Then it's like. We two are in the totally same position. So i told her lah, nvm ! We go find other guys lah, we can get over our ex de dun worry. Haha, then we were talking so long, till lunch time alsoo, then she was like, okay next time we go McD together. Well since we live near eachother. Then go to the bball court there see hot guys half naked. HAHAHA. *nose bleed*.



During computer time, teacher din bother what we do so everyone was like playing maple, i just see see lo then help they all. Cos of course lah! I'm so pro okayy?!?!?! LOL! Then went to sit with li jin then we listen to 蒲公英的约定 by Jay Chou. Aik, i listen till cry lo. Haihs, cos thats the song i listen to when me & him broke up, haih. Then I read all the old blog post about him de then i was like so dam emo, haih. My tears were like, going come out liao. Then Kim Meng ask me i still like him ah? I said yeah, then he ask me why break. I dunno how to answer -.- Haih. I regret lar, but i'm also trying to hold myself together and I know i can make it through this lah :) Theres so many other guys out there. Anyway daddy gave me advice lo. He say go find 17 or 18 yr old bf cos their more matured -.- My dad another one lar think he so good. But also true, haih. 17 or 18 yr old de is more matured. Then my mum say anything also can la just dun get myself hurt & dun forget about my studies. I'm glad lar at least my parents allow me having a boyfriend. Hmm.



I want to watch 小孩不笨二 (I not stupid 2) ! I know, is dam old but i love the show man. Either that or 不能说的秘密 (secret). Grrr, i miss watching those movies. hehe. Maybe tmrw watch, if mummy let me ponteng :(


People said you want kao another girl wor, anyway go ahead. You're not mine anymore.

Bye Noobs!

My heart's breaking in front of you;

Hi. Sighh.



When will my life get better? When will i learn to live without him?


I had a dream last night, a dream that oh how i wish it was real. Here is goes


It was a school day like every other. A day being alone without him as my boyfriend anymore, it was lonely, sad & moodless. Nothing made me happy. I was in the canteen with Amanda & Heena. Suddenly he came up to me, and asked me to go to the counselling room with him. I'm like, okay. Once we were in the counselling room, he told me he loved me & asked me to be his girlfriend once again. I cried, oh yes i did. I cried & smiled at the same time and accepted it. Sigh, i could imagine how happy i was. So we were together ever since, again. Soon, i woke up & i cried, again. But this time, it was because it's only a dream. Sigh, i wanted it to be real, super real. I wanted it to happen. Well of course not in the counselling room & me getting emotional & all. But i just want him back, it's all i want. Him. I don't want anybody or anything else, only him.



Yesterday I had sent him a really harsh message. I told him to forget that we were ever together. Sigh, i didn't know that it would hurt him, & now he's not talking to me. I asked Jia Qi to make sure he's okay. I'm really sorry, i couldn't stop crying last night, then my mum called me for dinner, as usual i didn't want to eat. I told her i didnt wanna go out but in the end i did. I realised that my eyes were so red & i had horrible eye bags. I didn't know how to explain to my mum about it. So i decided to put on my lenses & just tell my mum that my eyes were red because of my lens. I couldn't possibly tell her that i cried right? Sigh. I cry everyday everynight. I just need him by my side. I really, need him. More than anything, i swear. I just can't take it. Living without him is killing me, it really. is. KILLING ME. It's been six days since we were broken up. And 4 days since he last told me he loved me. And 3 days since he last called me baby. I miss him so much I can't explain it. I don't feel like telling him anymore, it might just hurt him even more. Sigh i wish this world was much easier. Now what i want is to die. I have no mood for anything else. I don't want anything else, but him.



The only thing i pray for every night is for me & him to be back together. I have never regretted something so much in my life, i regret leaving him. Maybe he dosen't even love me anymore, i don't know, the guy i love MOST in this world dosen't want me back. I really hope he does. Haih. I've been trying, like hell. I see everyday but it's not enough. I see him as a friend. I want to see himhim as my boyfriend & the one i love. I really need him, really. So much I can't take it. It hurts a hell lot inside. I can't even put on a real smile. Because my smile is always fake without him. Why did i do it? Why in the FUCKING HELL WORLD did i break up with him? WHY? I regret so much that i feel so, so, ugh nevermind. I feel so empty so nothing. So weak and i feel so lonely. I need him so badly. I still love him as much as i did before, I can't take it. Life without him is really killing me. Please, I want you back so badly...



Two songs that explain how i feel;

A little too not over you

&

I can wait forever.


A little too not over you,
*Highlighted lines describe what i feel.*

It never crossed my mind at all
That's what I tell myself
What we had is come and gone
You better offer someone else
It is for the best
I know it is
But I see you

Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside
And I turn around
You're with him now
I just can't figure it out

Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind me
I'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you

Memories suppose to fade
What's wrong with my heart
Shake it off let it go
Didn't think it would be this hard
Should be strong, moving on
But I see you

Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside
And I turn around
You're with him now
I just can't figure it out

Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind me
I'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you

Maybe I regret
Everything I said
And there's no way
To take it all back
Yeah
Now I'm on my own
I wont let you go
I'll never understand
I'll never understand
Yeah, ohhh.

Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind me
I'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you

Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind me
I'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
And I really don't know what to do
I'm just a little too not over you

Not over you, ooh.



I Can Wait Forever,


*highlighted lines describe my feelings*


You look so beautiful today
When you're sitting there it's hard for me to look away
So i try to find the words that i could say
I know distance doesn't matter but you feel so far away
And I cant lie
Every time I leave my heart turns gray
And I want to come back home to see your face
And I
Cause I just cant take it

Another day without you with me
Is like a blade that cuts right through me
But I can wait
I can wait forever
When you call my heart stops beating
When you're gone it wont stop bleeding
But I can wait
I can wait forever

You look so beautiful today
It's like every time I turn around I see your face
The thing I miss the most is waking up next to you
When I look into your eyes, I wish that I could stay
And I cant lie
Every time I leave my heart turns gray
And I want to come back home to see your face
And I
Cause I just cant take it

Another day without you with me
Is like a blade that cuts right through me
But I can wait
I can wait forever
When you call my heart stops beating
When you're gone it wont stop bleeding
But I can wait
I can wait forever

I know it feels like forever
I guess that's just the price I gotta pay
But when I come back home to feel your touch
Makes it better
Till that day
Theres nothing else that I can do
And I just cant take it
I just cant take it

Another day without you with me
Is like a blade that cuts right through me
But i can wait
I can wait forever (I can wait forever)
When you call my heart stops beating
When you're gone it wont stop bleeding
But I can wait
I can wait forever
I can wait forever
I can wait forever...






I regret doing what i did, i regret leaving you. I regret it more than anything, i sweaaaaar.

I miss you so much, i hope you know that. I need you more than anything. I love you like i've never loved before. I want you back, sigh.



You're so worth it. You're worth my everything. YOU, are my everything.

This life of mine is nothing without you, i need you. Haih.


I'm sorry to have hurt you, i know i've done alot of that. But i really need you here & now. Please. Haihh.

I'm crying out blood.

So, Not, Ready. ;

Hii Humans.



I'm not feeling any better form yesterday. In school i felt sick to my stomach until after lunch where i laughed ABIT, i think it might be the first time i smiled today? Well then went for Speech& Drama where everything sucked again. This is my storyy,



Last night at 11.31pm i received a message from him, I'm nt gonna say what we talked about or what but just telling yooh. So yeah we msg-ed eachother until about 11.50 something or 12am. His messages made me happy, but i was shocked tho to receive him msg at first :\. So yeah but i was happy, before opening the message my heart beated, beated. Why would he even be messaging me? But i was glad he did. So yeah then in the end he said stuff that cheered me up a whole load. Gah, i was never so glad.



Sooooo, then he reminded me to wear th grey t-shirt tmrw. Yeah, i always forget it on Wednesdays -.- , anyway today after ECA i saw him outside 5 Science. Which was the class i had my Speech & Drama in. Well i know, obviously he WASN'T waiting for me. Couldn't be, i guess he was waiting for his friend in the toilet or something. Anyway, i was kinda happy to see him, well yeah i just like looking at him. Then i quickly went upstairs cos i was pei-ing Marcia to go get her bag.



& after break i had Science. Teachers were having a meeting inside so we all waited outside for awhile. Me & Puteri were standing at the balcony talking about him, then we turned behind suddenly he passed by, i looked at him, well practically stared at him but i forced myself to look away. I had to, right? Haihh.



Oh and, during lunch i was sitting near the girls toilet downstairs, where everyone normally lepak(s) there. So yeh i was talking to Ben and stuff. He said my contacts were scary, LOL. Reminded him of the Gannush or something from Drag me to Hell. -.- So then he asked about hows my problem with him and all. Then he kept saying his name again and again, i'm like Ben! Stop it! Cos everytime i hear his name i'd feel so sad somehow. But yeah, then khai teq came to sit with us also, & simmren too, we talked then about him and stuff. Sighhh, then i don't know, Simmren gave me a little encouragement on how i'm better off single? Sigh but i need him.



Overall today was sick-ish. I felt sick the whole day & not to mention really really tired. I haven't got enough sleep lately, & i haven't been eating right. I've lost like, 2kg since Sunday & today after school i lost another 1kg -.- I just don't have the apetite to eat, i don't even feel hungry for that matter. It takes time for me to get over him, once i'm okay then maybe, JUST MAYBE, things will be back to normal. Sigh, i miss him, xx

Taa.

i can't forget you, never.

Currently reading OUR msn history conversations, crying to every word.





i miss him, yes i do, alot. & i can't stop the crying, why can't i? because im a loner.



Monday morning, i thought it was all good, i'd be in school & just see him as usual. Everything would've been fine, until i saw that so-happy smile on his face, well yeah, i was happy for him to be happier without me, but i felt a slight cut through my heart. A slight cut could take a life. I made the biggest mistake ever, despite his flaws he's the only guy i've ever loved until it hurt this much. Don't mean to sound corny but i still love him like shit. Argh , it's so frustrating, i see him in school and yet i can't even go to him & sit with him or just talk. Seriously, i miss those memories & i still keep those love letters & messages. Everything. I still wear the necklace you gave me & sigh, i'm speechless. I end up in tears EVERYNIGHT. Argh, it's my fault i know it is. I told you everything yesterday & it's not enough because i can't explain to what i've done. I don't know, you can be mad at me all you want, you can be ignoring me all you want. I won't disturb you anymore, sigh. I still need you tho, like by my side, every second. I thought you said no matter what you'd be by my side. & i still have the message. But i know since were not together you think i don't think about it anymore. I do, i do, every single second. I can't help seeing you & know that you're no longer my boyfriend. Gah, i'm so attatched to you & i cnt let go, but why? sigh i don't know all i know is i've never been this hurt. Gawd it sucks, i miss you yes i do. Haih, I really need you, you know that? I don't wanna go on crying everyday & everynight. Sleeping after 3am & feeling so suicidal, BUT I'M NOT so please readers, dnt worry -.-"



I don't know how to let you know how much i love you. I don't think i should tell you anything anymore, maybe it would hurt you more i'm glad you seem happy w/o me just so you know i'm dying without you but if you're happy then i'd get over you, i'll try, if i can't well then it's just fate. Whats meant to be is meant to be. I love you so much & it hurts to say. haih.




I miss calling you bibi & hearing your voice, omg. Reading your messages, i still keep it. Those when were still together. Gah. It hurts it hurts. I don't know if you're hurt or not if you don't tell me. Can't you just let me listen? Gah. I feel like dying, seriously life sucks so much w/o you. WHY?! Everything i still remember every moment every second every day week month. I appreciated every single second with you i beared with your sensitivity. I'm emotionally dead right now. Fuck i hate myself so much -.-" I shouldn't have sent that last message to you on Sunday around 3pm. I shouldn't have i shouldn't have, i fucking regret. I needed time but why did i go str8 to breakup. Argh i regret the shit out of this. You think that i lied about EVERYTHING i said yesterday? Oh My God, all those words made me cry like HELL and you telling me that i lied? You don't know how hurtful it is for me to hear that, i cried like hell while typing those messages. And all you replied was "Haih" or you'd just reply me like so cold. Sigh, i feel like dying i just wanna cut school tomorrow -.- But i know i can't haih. I NEED YOU SO MUCHHHH,

I miss you like hell & i'm never getting over you.

This.Is.So.Frustrating.

I.Need.You.So.Much.<3.>

Gan Khai Teq :O

Heyyy! It's 11.18pm on a Monday night. Hehe.


I'm feeling much much better, thankyou truck loads to Ryan & Khai Teq. Ya'll made my day, hehe.


Just finished webcaming with Khai Teq, it cheered me up i guess. Cos of his stupid face, HAHAHA. My eyes were welled up in tears i tell youzxzxzxzx. Then he laughed at me :( Cos my eyes so swelling. HAHA. -.- Okeh, pictures from the webcamm!

He's watching porn! LOL.

I was crying -.- [After the ch thingy], but i still smiled :D

Edward haven't died, he's with mee ;D

He showing me his teddy bear shirt. He said those bears are having sex. I said whoa, new generation of sex, stand up and face eachother and dont do anything, LOL.

Anyway, So far last & this week Ryan & Kai has been there to cheer me up, guys, thanks a heck load. Oh & not forgetting Amanda & Ziany & Amirah & Nadiah. Sigh, Heena dosent even know yet! :(



Aite ima stop here, lazy to blog, nt sure if i'm sleeping early. School tmrw. Byeee! :D

Blabber;

Heyy! I've got alot to blog about, hehehehe.


Yesterday i went out with Aliah, Mico & Marcia to Piramiddd. We watched Drag Me To hell. Gawd it was freaking ... uh, well it wasnt scary, just alot of parts where the ghost popped out all of a sudden. Hehe, I shopped like a crazy bitch yesterday & spent more than 500 bucks. Sigh i feel so guilty shopping :( Lazt minute saw Khai Teq there then i had to go back :\



I bought grey contact lenses. hehe, well when i wear them they look blue but abit grey-ish too. But in pictures they REALLY look blue, hehe. I love them. Just the right color. Gladly i didn't buy the turquoise one which was kinda .. well it was nice but i guess the color would've looked weird on me? :\.



Anyway, pictures from yesterday & today;

Ignore the heart-shaped necklaceee.

Single & Ready to mingle (;

"Andrea, you stunning bitch :D" - Jian Wai.

Salmon Sashimi. So cheap in sakae sushi -.-

Aliah's finished salad & vitagen. LOL.

Soo, there's something else that i'm quite excited to tell you about :O

I finally took the strength I had & broke up with my boyfriend. I'm glad i did. I feel so much better now. He seriously wasn't treating me right. Well i'm not going to talk bad about him here so yeh. I'm proud of myself :D I feel so free & lose, so happy & cheerful. Well i am sad on the inside tho, i still have feelings for him :\ Well duhh, but i will get over it soon. Like I always tell people that there are many fish in the sea, i guess i should tell myself that too :D. I'd need cheering up tho, these couple of days. Seeing him in school -.- Gawd, & he still has my jacket, lolol. But i bought another one, LOL. & the wallet i bought him, & the key, well i guess i'd keep it & not give it to anyone. Maybe my next boyf? :D We'll see. Hahah.

I feel so light & happy now, hehe. I feel kinda free & what i wanna do now is act all flirty around people i guess it will make me feel better, hehehe. Anyway i'm lazy to talk about him anymore. Let the new days start. I don't have to deal with seeing his emo face everyday. I don't have to deal with him being sensitive over everything, i dont have to deal with people keep bugging me to break up with him & i dont have to deal with him telling me that he dosent want me talking to guys. You know what? Chee How, you ask me not to talk to guys, lulz like you dnt talk to girls? Anyway forget it. I dnt wanna talk about the past. I wont be surprised, in a month or so you'd find another girlfriend. HAHA, we'll see :D

This calls for a celebration ;) I'll plan a party, yay.

Taa!

Drag me to hell;

Heyyyyy!



I dont feel like blogging. But i feel like blogging. Well, things that make me blog are pictures & maybe rants or if i have something to say (?)


Bibi's playing badminton nw so i'm free to blog. Anyway, parents just got back from Clearwater this evening. Apparently my mummy missed me :O It's a good thing, right? :D She go back and she excitedly asked me if i wanted to go anywhere, i'm like, sure! Take me to 7-11 i seriously need credit on my phone. She's like, lets go. LOL. Hmm, I'm going to london in 99 days :O. Okay it's pretty stupid for me to be counting but who cares! I planned this trip for my family! Wow, first time planning something. I helped them book flight tickets & look for a decent hotel to bunk in. & i helped with train tickets, & looking for exciting places to visit. I pretty much did everything, well except for paying the bills (A).


I feel like going shopping, you know why! I've got 700 bucks saved up and they've been talking to me "Spend Me, SPEND ME!" . Looking at their sad faces i figured that i should spend them before the holidays are over :( I wanna go out tmrw, like, SERIOUSLY. But i don't know if i'm gonna have transport. Oh & I've got some pounds to change into MYR. So ima have more , yay. I've listed things that i needa buy already, oh wow. People say, never count your chickens before their hatched, but well HELL-OOH, i've already got them money & all i need is transport to the mall :( Oh, and a shopping partner to show off my money. Nah, just kidding -.-"


List of things i wanna buy :

• Oversized Sunnies
• Skinny Jeans
• Kezillion Tops
• Long sleeved tops
• New hoodie
• Diva stuffzxzxzx
• TAKOYAKIII(:
• Earrings, I wanna pierce moree.
• Sexbands. [Khai Teq confiscated mine, said want get back for me, never also! -.-]
• Hair products
• Nail polissshhh
• MORE TOPS!
• Lingerie(?)
• Shorts
  
  

So far, I think that's all i've listed? I dnt knw, we'll see when i get there. Oh and now i needa look for a shopping partner. Someone who is willing to go into every shop & try clothes but yet dont buy it unless the sales girl really convinces me (?). LOL


So, Mummy said I can go, & i've asked ALIAHZAINI, to accompany me to the mall. One tinsy winsy problem, no one to take care of my little sister :( I guess i'd ditch her over at neighbour's or something. Ehehehe.


Shopping date tmrw is set! & Were gna watch Drag Me To Hell. Yay!


I shall not forget to pierce my ears this time. Gawd i keep on forgetting -.-" . Chaow(:

Pet Family?

Hey Ya'll.

Lately i've realised something in our 'asian' community. & it's driving me nuts. You know, i really don't get it , why must people ..................

HAVE PET FAMILIES?!?!!

If you dnt know what i'm talking about, lemme explain

You know, when people have friends become their, pet mother, father, brother, sister, daughter, son, grandfather, grandmother, auntie, uncle, cousin, daughter in law, son in law, niece, nephew, great grand mother, great grand father, uncle in law, grand uncle, grant aunt, auntie in law.

WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT ALL ABOUT -.-

Look, i'm not saying that i don't have one. I have pet BROTHERS, only. You know why? BECAUSE I DONT HAVE A BLOOD-RELATED BROTHER. But ya'll, lucky enough to have mothers fathers, brothers & sister, and yet still looking for PET FAMILIES? wtfuxx?

Okay lah, i have to say, it's freaking stupid -.- But whoever who has all these pet family things, no offence. But i think it's stupid. I mean, if you don't have a brother or a sister which is blood related & you get one pet sibling, then it's fine. But ya'll are lucky enough to have blood-related families, so why find others? Sick & tired of yours? Well here's news for you, without them you wouldn't even be here, assholes.

Oh yeah and, since when do pet sisters & brothers call eachother pet names like strawberry. -.- Why not try mango, apple, watermelon, honeydew, starfruit, dragonfruit? -.- Or why not just call him/her darling for gods sake. Strawberry? Lulz. I dont call my pet brothers strawberry do i? What.The.Hell.

Anyway, i'm so lazy to rant about this stupid pet family shit. If ya'll wanna have them pet mum dad brother sister or whatthefuck shit for all i care, go ahead. LOL, lame fucks :)

Taa.

I can wait forever;

I Can Wait Forever~ :D

Just Read the lyrics, I love the lyrics, Sigh & the song is awesome too. Go download it. By Simple Plan.





You look so beautiful today
When you're sitting there it's hard for me to look away
So i try to find the words that i could say
I know distance doesn't matter but you feel so far away
And I cant lie
Every time I leave my heart turns gray
And I want to come back home to see your face
And I
Cause I just cant take it

Another day without you with me
Is like a blade that cuts right through me
But I can wait
I can wait forever
When you call my heart stops beating
When you're gone it wont stop bleeding
But I can wait
I can wait forever

You look so beautiful today
It's like every time I turn around I see your face
The thing I miss the most is waking up next to you
When I look into your eyes, I wish that I could stay
And I cant lie
Every time I leave my heart turns gray
And I want to come back home to see your face
And I
Cause I just cant take it

Another day without you with me
Is like a blade that cuts right through me
But I can wait
I can wait forever
When you call my heart stops beating
When you're gone it wont stop bleeding
But I can wait
I can wait forever

I know it feels like forever
I guess that's just the price I gotta pay
But when I come back home to feel your touch
Makes it better
Till that day
Theres nothing else that I can do
And I just cant take it
I just cant take it

Another day without you with me
Is like a blade that cuts right through me
But i can wait
I can wait forever (I can wait forever)
When you call my heart stops beating
When you're gone it wont stop bleeding
But I can wait
I can wait forever
I can wait forever
I can wait forever...




*tears*..

Do Not Twit :D

EDIT* 8.26pm.

Talking to Natalie , HAHA, & just nw we talked like a bunch of lala shits. LOL Click the above picture to enlarge :D It was fun, i think i'm getting the hang of it, getting used to that lala shit.


One lesson we should all learn, NEVER SPEAK LIKE SOME KINDA LALA MUII BECAUSE IT'S SO TROUBLESOME & TAKES YEARS TO TYPE ONE SENTENCE -.-

Hehe, I'm out --

Heloooh(:

Currently listening to, Heartless - Kanye West.

Yesterday was a super fucking stupid day. But things were settled, THANKGOD.

Anyway, supposed to go out today but i guess i'm not going to. Soo, i think tmrw i'll be out with Ting & otheeeeers.

I dnt knw, whats on my mind right now. I didn't end it yesterday, when will i end it? I don't think I ever will. I don't have the strength to -.- People say that if i dont do it, he'd do it first :( . We'll see, sigh. I don't knw but sometimes life tests us with stuff. Maybe this was a test, i don't know. But i'm seriously getting fond of these tests.

After that shit yesterday I talked to Natalie. Well i guess she's the only one who understands my placing. So yeah, i felt better actually. Soo, thankyou Natalie if you're reading. Hehe.

I tried to install NFS : Undercover into my computer yesterday night but failed! Wtf! How saddening -.-.

My noob Glg is so ... -.-. He asked me the meaning of w/e, I said it meant wet erection?!?!?! Okay lah, i was abit hyper that time then he called me a sick freak but he put it on his PM -.- So stupid. LOLOL wet erection, zzz.

I've been playing with my dad's iPhone aloot, and i'm getting used to it. My dad's considering to get me one, YAY ! Omg i can't wait, HEHEHE. I'm having PMS, argh, and my stomach hurts like fuucccckkkk. Grr.

I talked to this stupid girl yesterday on MSN, she talked to me, LALA STYLE. Soo yeah, let me give you a paragraph of example :D

Ellos, are euu andrea arhx? iie amx sh0 bOred nehhsx. Whadd are euu dOinqq worhx? Are euu bOred too? Yesterday hOrhx, iie went tuhh schOol dhenn eat at dhe canteen dhere shO nOisy nehhsx! Dhen hOrhx qort alOt of hOt qquys nehhsx! Dhey all cOme & talk to me lehhsx! Iie was sh0 excited nehhsx, bhudd hOrx, iie alreadyy qq0rt bOyfriend nehhsx, sh0 i walked away frOm dhem lehhsx, sh0 q00d lehhs miie. iie amx sh0 lOyal tuhh my bOyfriend lehhsx!

THAT, is a good example :D Okay the story is totally stupid & fake. I made it up while i was twitting, simply random-ed a lame story -.-

Alright i'm off.

Taa.